It’s a constant struggle this habit of wanting things I don’t have. Being aware of it is not enough to stop it from happening. It’s ingrained deep into my sense of who I am. I am one who scans my environment for items I identify with. I am therefore compelled to harness those ideas until I have fully merged with them. Then it starts all over. I am now the person who I needed to become and now I must do it again to become the next person I need to be. Problem is this is all so exhausting and the opportunity cost is impossible to measure. Some wants take forever to achieve. Some wants are easy but cause longer term wants to be put off. The juggle is constant and annoying to the point where I’d rather just not want stuff. I’d rather just be happy with who I am because the attainment of one object often comes along with many more unforeseen objects. No want is just a simple thing.